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[Oct. 25th, 2009|01:53 pm] |
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Stephen leave in 9 days for his solo kayaking trip down the east coast for 2 months. :( |
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[Sep. 30th, 2009|10:06 am] |
stephen is great. He is sweet and constantly changing from a flight risk to a movies on the couch guy and he's happy to do it. shoccccking. Everyone that knows him is thrown off by the change. hes more considerate, and i don;t know. hes great, and quickly becoming a guy i would like to see for a while. but..... it's FREAKING ME OUT. i liked bitching about him being flight risk and him hopping planes to other continents to avoid things. because i knnew it wouldn't be serious because of course i was waiting around for andrew. pathetic i know. i think we're waiting around on each other. hes waiting to run out of options and im waiting for him to get done hammering every girl he meets.
so now im looking at things differently. I guess I can try to let Stephen in. I don't know. He leaves for flight shool in Jan. Hopefully i can have it figured out by then. |
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[Jul. 24th, 2009|02:42 pm] |
I am constantly moving!!!! ughhhh
I have been seeing Stephen for few weeks and he's pretty cool. Aside from that whole... venturing to other countries without notice thing. haha.
Andrew and i tried to stay friends and it's been working out pretty well. or at least it did before i found out he hadn't only been screwing other girls but starting having multiple relationships. fucking mind blowing. I feel like i never really knew him. he admits hes a sleaz ball and even okes about his double life. i don't even know what to say.
my life was pretty much a sham. awesome. |
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[Jul. 1st, 2009|06:22 pm] |
-Andrew and I broke up.
-I moved into a frat house for six weeks. yay Delta Upsilon!
-Andrews trying to work things out
-but says he'll probably cheat again
-I started seeing stephen again
-he was awesome
-he can't stay in the country to save his life though
-so he gotsta go
-the frat house is amazing, all of the boys are verrry nice and they like when i cook.
-I do not miss winston, especially with amanda losing her damn mind.
-I do miss Andrew and i'm glad he can behonest with me. but i won't marry a cheater.
- never want to move out of this house. Right now we are having diner and watching clerks like little family.
-I hate ESPN. |
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[Jun. 26th, 2009|09:28 am] |
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haha. You read my livejournal. No wonder she hates me. |
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[Jun. 1st, 2009|04:46 pm] |
I can't at this time forgive him. I will not be a doormat. That's not who I want to be and definitely not how I want to feel.
I have been having a lot of fun lately trying to block whats going on. Everything I have done has been a temporary fix it for sitting around crying.
Stephen is around again, and very supportive. He has been completely unbiased to the situation and a great friend. Even when we were cornered by Andrew.
In order to start things over from the beginning with a clear head i cut my self off from my family. I let them control what I do too much so I told them I was out. My feelings were well respected for once and they have given me my space which makes it a lot easier.
I move to Chapel Hill in 20 days to start my new amazing job where I'll make lot of money and have a ton of fun. I will be there for maybe 9 months before I move again to college! I'm applying to 2 schools in NY,1 in CO, 1 in Cali, and 2 in NC. Maybe 1 in GA depending on how the visit goes with Jill next month.
I look forward to starting my new life, with a new job and new house and new roommates. I will put all of this behind me. |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2009|12:49 pm] |
I'm stuck.
I think i'm over it but I'm not.
I think baout it all of the time.
I think he broke me. |
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[Apr. 12th, 2009|12:22 pm] |
So I'm in Chapel Hill. I signed a lease last week so i move here Aug. 1st.
whats the deal with Andrew and i?.......
Well a few days ago we talked and its clear he feels like hes missing out on something (and by something i mean the wild crazy, chasing skirts thing) so we decided to take a break unitl Aug. so he could get that out of his system.
yes, i am allowing my boyfriend to be a whore, is he comfortable with it...? no, actually. but i suggested it.
I am not seeing anyone really, but i guess the only way to keep my mind off of it is to see other people as well, but not in the get naked with condoms way he'll be doing.
How did this all get so messed up. i wish he had never moved, i wish he had never joined that frat of horny 19 yr olds and slutty girls, and i wish he would be done already. part of me totally understands and thinks he just needs to get it out of his system, the other part thinks he won't be able to stop.
Can I really go through life knowing i'm with a cheater, a constant cheater? i think so actually, as long as hes honest, i think i could as sick as it sounds.
i dont know, im so confused. I have been hanging out with stephen and thats strange because of our history, but even hes like "the guys a tool, but if you love the tool, and you understand him, and you can deal with it, than have a toolerific life. but don't complain about it". so i dont know
whatever. I blame it on genetics. does that make me a bitch? I'm sure it does, but hey. Andrew also blames genetics so it's not really my fault. |
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[Mar. 9th, 2009|08:12 am] |
So, Andrews @ spring break in Panama City. Suprizingly... he is still not partying. He's the sober driver and calls allof the time! One of the girfriends of one o the guys texted me saying the boys can't get andrew to party. This makes me feel so much better, I'm so glad he listened to how I felt and really made a change.
Saturday was insane, we bar hopped and my housemate Carlin drank a lot (Carlin never drinks and is always the DD) she started cryin at the bar and fell apart. Her boyfriend of 4 years broke up with her because he wanted to go to law school alone. They had met in under grad and she moved here with him while they attended Grad school. I could not believe this, mike was in my eyes the perfect freakin boyfriend. Craziest part, hebroke up with her a month ago! She hadnt said a word because she wante to be a good friend and support me with all of this andrew drama. And she was going through a break up, she is soooo great! And crazy.
We went out with the Cancer Bio Boys and they were a blast. All off them are engaged which is great because we dont have to worry about them being skeez.
So since Andrew is giving up his partying I am also goign to slow down. I havebeen dieting for about 3 months and am seeing no change so i figure if i stop the weekend bar hoppings and go to the gym I will drop some weight for sure.
I have a new roommate for next year.... Shes multisexual and a bit spoiled. But she seems cool.
I went out with my middle school crush's sister friday night and we did L.I.T's and i confessed my major crush i used to have and was a loud mouth. The next morning I was like "OMG, i am so embarrised she will probably not want to ever see me again". and i get this call like "hey, i say we roll into alex's cafe in PJ's and sunglasses, i'll pick u up in 15". @ breakfast she told me she called her brother and told him about my broken 13 yr old heart. It was hilarious, and shes cool as heck! So I hope we hang out again this week.
Sunday I had breakfast with Professor John at Cat's Corner and then we call hung out and watched the basketball games which was cool. Then I went home and waited for this kid on my street to come hang out but he was lame so it was Carlin ad I hanging out watching friends.
Now I'm at work waiting for these kids to wake up. |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2008|02:14 pm] |
ALL OF MY ROMMATES ARE GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay, that made my morning.
andrews home and playing the xbox all the time!
works ok axcept i am broke after bears emergency vet visit.
im witing for my yearly run in with the asshole whih always happens at this time of year. except usually i dont refer to him as the asshole.
dominics ex is after her kids after leaving them over a year ago so my sister natrually is really upset. they are trying to press neglect and abuse charges against her but who knows if that will be done in time to keep them from going to NY with her.
saw black snake moan last night which was better than i thought it would be.
nothing much going on. |
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[Dec. 15th, 2008|10:14 am] |
andrews home!!!!!!
he met my new guy friends and they love home so much andy said he was going to start a bromance with him.
We went to nomawhich was nice but of course jane didnt inform me it was cocktail attire so andrew, my guy friends and i were way under dressed. lame.
I really hate living with jane. i mean i really hate it.
alaina is dating our neigbhor which is weird.
chase and i ran into each other at the oddessey and got in a fight that was so big we got the boot and had continue yelling at each other in the parking lot. so he punch the door to the club and broke his hand. again.
I guess andrew and i wont be living together next year so i will be applying to mcgill after all. no sense in staying in NC for something that is obviously not going to progress for... ever. Theres nothing wrong, Andrews just being andrew and going back and forth. So I'm applying to schools over the summer. I'm very excited
bear got really sick and has to have surgery on his butt. yup the butt poor guy. he had an infection and got very sick and i took him to the er vet. but hes better. still on drugs. but hes better.
I started hanging out with this group of kids from the cancer research dept and i feel like its a lot of motivation to get through school.
teresa graduated! Congrats!!!
nothing going on, andrews home and i hate ging to work because i know hes at home with jane and shes probably making him build her furniture and trying to give him a back rub.... ughhhhhh. |
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[Dec. 1st, 2008|10:51 am] |
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so my roommates... well i hate jane. for christmas can someone hit her with a bus? The fighting with chase has gotten heated. really really heated. hes the one that screwed half the girls i know. ughhhhhhh. |
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[Nov. 7th, 2008|12:44 pm] |
So Sergiey dumped alaina my roommate 2 nights ago. Its bee cry fest 08 @ my place lately. so i sent her flowers and put multiple flavors of ben and jerry in the fridge. tonight we are going out man hunting. and this weekend our cute neibhor is keeping her company. the serge treated her like crap. said he had been using her and hadnt actually cared about her for the pst 2 years. soof course we all gaherd in the livingromm laptops in hand digging up dirt. Like crazy people. hacked his FB and myspace to find out he had been messeging other girls. one of which he met at our party. asshole. shes pretty upset!
I go see andrew on monday and will be seeing seeing him for thanksgiving break. i miss him sooo much and we have so muc fun hen we see each other. i miss him already!!!! |
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[Oct. 26th, 2008|09:06 pm] |
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so the 80's party was terrible. jane was crazy and everyone drank too much. drama! I cant wait to move. Mcgill is looking better and better! ahh who knows, I cant wait to sell all of my stuff. I keep coming across things i need to get rid of. I plan on keeping bear obviously, some clothes, my dresser and bed and my couch. the tables, the desk, the pink everything, has got to go. i miss andrew and will be seegin him this weekend. and thank god i got out of having to bring the roommates. its not going well here. i wish i could just live with carlin and alaina. they are so drama free! |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2008|09:09 pm] |
I hate stupid frats, i hate stupid dares i hate that my 25 yr old boyfriend of 4 years thinks hes 17. i hate that i cant say anything. ughhhhhhhhhhhh,
i hate that my house is so cold because i live with northerners.
i hate that i lost my health insurance.
i hate that next semester i wont have time to breath.
i hate that im jealous
i hate that my car is faceing the end
and i hate that im blogging about it.
Its been a bad day. i want to move so bad. oddly i find this house too bright. i relly want sell all of my crap. simplify and go to sleep. its too much clogging my brain. i need sleep. saticfying 16 hours of sleep. no phone, no job, no task to be done. just sleep. and to wake to a clean prganized home. where its always cleaned the way i like it no no one drinks the last of the juice. where i can have the temp the way i want it and quiet. not bab marleyt at all hours of the day. i feel sooooo old. |
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[Sep. 28th, 2008|05:30 pm] |
I always try to look back on the past with good memories and forget the bad. Thats why it's always been easy to forgive people and for me to remain friends with people i shouldnt remain friends with. I forget the negative because after all don't we all have bad things we would rather not be brought up?
Heres how this all ends. Years of caring for someone i knew was bad for me, years of always forgiving, years of always understanding that people change or that you change with every new enviroment but normally remain constant in our friendship have lead me to this. You have lied to me, you have caused a rift with my family, you have been nothing but trouble. and after years of telling my boyfriend we were friends and to suck it up, and even when it took him 2 years to get over it. i could never come to say you were a good person. your not.
i am glad i did what i did and i am glad i cut those ties. You are toxic and i was dumb enough to defend you when all you wanted was to take advantage of our friendship. i hope you get hit by a bus.
<3 ginny |
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[Sep. 15th, 2008|01:27 am] |
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i visited andrew this weekend. i love seeeing him! i'll see him in 2 weeks and i cant wait! distance is making the heart fonder every day! |
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| life to sum it all up. |
[Sep. 8th, 2008|04:29 pm] |
So i have 20 credit hours left till i can transfer! I am super excited since that means i can be done in the next year. I'm looking into a few different schools and have some favorites. I'm coming to Charlotte to help with race for the cure soon. lots going on, i think I'm going to sell all of the crap i have accumulated.
living with 4 girls in nuts! Jane is nice but she has to be the center of attention 24 hours a day, i kid you not i have heard "i never have to buy my own drinks" about a million times. along with her love octagon crap. aside from that shes okay, i don't think she realizes how annoying it is so everyone! Nicole is cool, shes really chilled out and as about every song you always knew you loved but never knew the name of on her itunes and is always willing to stay up late talking, she however smokes pot about every evening as if it were prescribed to her. Alaina is bomb as heck, i love her! she is so great, shes very upfront and honest about everything and since we eat all of the same everything we have worked out a system of sharing groceries and she takes care of bear and loves on him when im gone. Carlin is of course perfect, shes carlin what else can i say?
I miss andrew a ton! i see him every other weekend and since i have jumped into school full time now its easier because we do dinner, go back to the dorms and study together instead of having different schedules. he's definitely in his element! hes so happy and i love that. I'm applying to NCSU and hopefully will be attending in the fall of 09 so we might be closer but 2 years apart. I thought i would be dieing with him gone but the girls, work and school keep me so busy i see him when i see him, we talk twice a day and everything is great and has worked out much better than i had expected. He's a good guy, and i can't wait to see him again. distance makes the heart grow fonder right? |
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[Aug. 29th, 2008|02:33 pm] |
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i was wrong, we had a wonderful 4 year anniversary. and i hate e-mail |
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